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I wanna cry today 

I'm not really sure why 

But all I want to do right now is cry 

Crawl up into a ball and cry until the world is ended 

I don’t know if it’s exhaustion or just plain old depression popping up for it’s daily visit 

But all I want to do is cry 

I'm tired of people 

And uncertainty 

And plans that will be canceled before they could even begin 

Nothing goes right 

Something always falls off the wagon or is displaced and im left to pick up the pieces of a shattered mess 

One week 

I only wanted one week and now I won’t be getting it 

I know I won’t be getting it 

Leo doesn’t want to deal with Ravi 

And they probably won’t have a house ready by the time we’re meant to go 

So once again I’m left in the dust 

The sand caked inside my lungs and burning within my body

I don’t even know if I want to go anymore 

I don’t even know if I want to do anything anymore 

Everything I plan falls to ruin 

And then there is nothing I can do about it 

I can’t be happy 

Or feel joy 

Is anything even worth it anymore 

Cause right now 

Nothing is worth it anymore 

And I don’t even know what it is 

My soul?

My joy? 

My friendships? 

There’s nothing left to build this life on 

The strong bricks ran out a long time ago 

And the cement was mixed wrong and continues to fall apart in my hands 

What happens to a house when there is nothing left to hold it together? 

Exactly what you're thinking…  

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