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To Be Human

At a certain point in my life I've learned to turn it off 
What you may ask? 
My humanity 
Why? 
So that the happenings of the world don't completely destroy me 
Shooting after shooting 
Bomb after bomb 
Death after death 
Is this what humanity has become? 
One sting after another of destruction and despair 
Without the humanity in me, 
I can't be destroyed completely by these 
I don't fear for my life at every given moment 
I won't question what it's like to be human because at the end of the day I don't want to be
After the smoke has cleared 
And the tears have dried up
We are still a bunch of animals slowly losing their minds,
Trapped in a dying world 
With nowhere to go but 6 feet down

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