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Ghost of Me

Wrote this while listening to 'Invisible' and 'Ghost of You' by 5 Seconds of Summer (linked at the end)

Ghost
I feel like a ghost 
Like I am dead but alive 
Reaching out to communicate with someone from another realm 
The old me died a long time ago 
And for awhile I thought I had life I was living 
But I was so wrong 
I’m drifting through another life 
In another realm 
I am a ghost of myself now 
There’s no going back 
No reversing of time 
No returning to who I once was
That person died years ago 
Now I drown my life in music
The only way I feel I can communicate my feelings 
But no one around me understands
Friends try to but I’m hidden away so deep 
They don’t know I exist 
They see the apparition of me 
My full body figure 
But the me they see is not the me that writes this 
The me they see is someone I’ve created to hide inside
I act invisible 
I am invisible
And I will stay that way for as long as life allows 
Til the ghost of me also disappears 

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